Something About Us - DAFT PUNK

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

My Best Friend

WEEZER LYRICS

"My Best Friend"

When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

There is no other one who can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
'Cause I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you that I need you

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
Yes I do...
Yes I do

Incubus Lyrics - Love Hurts

Attached below are the lyrics of an song by the band Incubus. I posted it up on here because i have dedicated myself to learn the words.

UPDATE 29/11/07: This song has caused me to write up analytical statements about myself, which are below the lyrics, if anyone cares to read.

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Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
Don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface, this one-man submarine?
I only want the truth!
So tonight we drink to youth!
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Without love I won't survive

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Love hurts, ohhh-oh ohh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts la-la-la-la-la-la oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive

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I usually never listen to the words of a song. I think of the vocals as just another instrument, a simple sound combining with the other instruments, but not something that has expressed a thought or statement.

Thoughts that do arise are unique to me, because they are created by how the sounds emotionally sway me at that point in time.

Thats why when i was growing up, i found it very easy to enjoy techno, electronica and rap/hip-hop/r&b music. With alot of techno music, they just repeat the same words over and over again and the brain starts to ignore them. With rap there are soo many words squished into the one song, the only words people can remember is the chorus.

Perhaps i am a very simple minded person. The beat and the simple sounds are all i need to please the soul. Perhaps thats why i dont usually listen to 'white people music'

White people analyse too much. they hurt too much. Instead of black and white they meddle in the grey area way too much. They are frustrated and over-sexed, or severely under-sexed. And this is expressed in their music.

Well, thats what i think anyway. Sometimes i think white people make life way too hard on themselves.

Its very hard for me to instantly like their music. It has to be ground down, worked in and repeated severally. The trigger for me to like Caucasian tunes is women.

When I think a women is damn sexy, their musical appetite seems to grow on me. From Sara and her lips on the hilltops [back in my highschool days], to Karen and her miniskirts at the Big Day Out - women and their charms have broadened my tolerances to this overly angry/sad/over-analytical music.

The song above, 'Love Hurts', would never have been noticed by me if Karen hadn't mentioned it in her journal. The band 'Queen' would be nothing if not for Sophia. The Dandy Warholes, Muse, Metallica, The Strokes, The Living End, Oasis, The Cure, Green Day - they would have meant nothing to me without women.

Strange that...

This is the first actual blog post i've made in months. And of course it lingers on about women, again. Shit i must be the horniest little blighter this side of West Auckland.

Karen, dont you say anything! i know your laughing, cut that out!

This is one of things on my 'most desired things in life' list.

The following script below is totally not mine.
i got it off http://users.tkk.fi/~adent/crazy.html
I thought it was pretty awesome:

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How to be CRAZY ?

Getting started:

Going crazy is actually very easy - all you need to do is to stop thinking the way everybody else is thinking and come up with some original thoughts.

Everybody else will immediately think you have gone crazy.

Well, of course, unless you express your original thoughts by creating something that might be understood as art. In this case people will assume that you are an artist. But on the other hand because artists are widely considered to be crazy you'll end up getting it right anyway.

So there's really nothing to it. Getting crazy is a piece of cake. Believe me - I've done it a number of times.

Staying crazy:

Now here's when things get difficult. For some odd reason other people hate it if someone is acting crazy - it really bugs them. So they will immediately start to guide you back to being normal. And they'll use any means availaible - first they'll persuade you gently "to just think like everybody else is thinking". But if that doesn't help then they will gradually start to get more serious about turning you back into "normal". In fact it gets pretty nasty from here on. They'll pump you full of drugs, lead high voltage through your head and eventually turn you into a pumpking. This of course means that they have succesfully cured you because pumpkins sure as hell don't think originally and therefore can't be crazy either, can they ?

I really don't know why people think it is so terribly dangerous to be crazy - maybe it's written down somewhere in that really old book, whose name I cannot remember at he moment... You know - the one that has lots of weird and obsolete rules and commands in it. And a lot of things about wars and killing in the name of some old fellow with a beard. Oh yes: The bible, that's what it's called - I remember it now. But let's forget fairy tails and bed time reading for a while and get back to business, i.e. staying crazy succesfully...

The trick of course is to BE CRAZY WITHOUT SHOWING IT. And this is very difficult indeed. When you are dealing with other people you have to act as if you were just like them - normal. Simple you might think ? You guessed wrong...Let me tell you why:

You have to constantly look out for two major mistakes. First one, the one that most beginners in being crazy make, is that they pay too much attention to acting normal and gradually stop being crazy and end up being normal. This of course means a total failure as far as being crazy is considered, not to mention that the effort of getting crazy in the first place gets waisted and you have to start everything from the beginning again.

The other common mistake is consentrating too much on being crazy and accidently showing signs of craziness in front of people. All you need to do is to slip out something that people find difficult to understand. Something like "I would like to do this just because there isn't a reason not to do it" or "Have you ever stopped to think that there are no reasons at all for our existance except the ones that we have made up ourselves ?". Oh boy - you'll be in a lot of trouble. Well, unless you are extremely lucky and the person you are talking to is also trying to be crazy. If this is the case you'll probably get away with it because the other person is consentrating so much on not to show that he/she is trying to be crazy that they won't have the time to notice that you slipped out something unusual. But this happens very rarely because, lets face it, being crazy is a very underrated sport with few serious enthusiasts.

So most likely the person you are talking to is just an average Joe thinking the average way - at least up to the point when you slip out something that strikes odd to him/her. This will naturally get his/hers thoughts all messed up for a while and places you under immmediate suspicion. However, responding very quickly to your own mistake might still save the situation. Trying to pass the whole thing as a funny joke is definitely recommed: Make a big grin, laugh at yourself and mumble something about the three men in a falling aeroplane with only two parashutes. Absolutely anything (exept other unusual thoughts) will do. Just get the other persons mind of your "slip". Make him feel comfortably about forgetting that odd idea you brough up and you'll get away scot free. This might take some practice but eventually you will get the hang of it and thereby you'll need to pay less attention on acting normal and consequently have more time to concentrate in being crazy. So practice indeed is the key to success in the field of craziness just like it is in football or alpine skiing.

So you have succeeded in being crazy for a longer period of time - what's the point of it ?

Being crazy is actually very good for you. In more ways than one might think. First of all you don't have to worry about going crazy - you already are. Pieceful mind is guaranteed. And there's lots more. For once you don't have to stress about being so succesfull - You are crazy, remember ? Crazy people don't usually do that well in life so no matter how badly you perform you don't need loose any sleep over it. And you can always feel good about the fact that you have succeeded in being crazy. After all that is not an easy task while considering all those problems involved with it.

And last but not the least:

World will finally make some sense for you. Everybody is always saying that things are going crazier /1/ day by day so if you manage to go along and be crazy, everything is going to look quite locigal to you and you'll end up worring a lot less about the world and instead spend more time being happy with it. And you should also keep in mind that being crazy is absolutely free of cost. No expensive club memberships or equipment are needed. So one could really say that going crazy is for everyone. And to top it off it's even safe on the enviroment.

So try it out - go CRAZY !

Someone tried to con me!

Man, someone tried to pull one of these on my Grandmother once (well her one was a lottery one), and i was quite afraid for her because she wasn't listening to my advice to be careful, as it really didnt sound right.

A quick and stern rant from my mom convinced her to think more into it. And now they are trying it on me. How sad - dont they know that i am a paranoia master?!?

I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING! PUT YOUR PANTS BACK ON YOU SICKO!!
...AND STOP TOUCHING THAT!!! :P

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West Africa
+22508556419

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l am Miss Josephine Hadi, the only daughter of late Engr and Mrs Samuel Hadi.My father was an Engineer and Contractor with the Government of Cote D'ivoire in Abidjan here, the economic capital of Ivory Coast, he was poissoned to death by his business associates on one of their outings on business.

My mother died on the 20th october 1988 and my father took me so special because l am motherless. Before the death of my father on 29th november 2004 in a private hospital here in Abidjan, he secretly called me on his bedside,when I sat down to listen to him, he started crying, why?(1)He conplained that I am too young to be managing my life,(2)That I have not finished my university education as he planned for me,(3)No body to take care of me again as a young girl, but after much crying, he still passed an instruction to me that he has a sum of US$8.000.000.(Eight Million United States Dollars) left in a Security Company here in Abidjan, That he used my name as the only daughter for his next of kin in deposit of the funds. He also explained to me that it was because of this wealth that he was posisoned by his business associates,that l should seek for a God fearing foreign partner in a country of my choice where l will transfer this money and use it for proper investment purpose ,that I must finish my university education by the help of a business partner abroad,That he or she should help me obtain a resident permit in his or her country.

He also gave an out standing instrution to the company that the money must be invest outside this country . and it was deposited as an Artworks to avoid problem or tamparing by the officers of the company.before use, this is to make sure that I did not begin to make use of the money here so that his enemies will not get at me. Sir, I am now ready to do all these since my father my bread winner is no more. Sir l am honourable seeking your assistance in the following ways.

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Furthermore, you can indicate your option towards assisting me as l believed that this project would be concluded within fourteen (14) days you signify interest to assist me. Hoping to hearing from you soonest. May God bless you as you extend your helping hand to a needy fellow.
Yours Sincerly.

Miss Josephine Hadi.
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I need more time

God is punishing me for procrastinating... my brain is burning.
im so sorry everybody

Ah, just another enjoyable weekend

Current Location: my busted-ass computer chair, in my bedroom
Current Mood: Itchy
Current Music: Hinoi Team - Night Of Fire, Beautiful - Snoop Dogg feat. Pharrell, Eva Mendes smooching Will Smith - Hitch (movie)

Im not very good at work. I must have problems with prioritizing and scheduling, cos i never seem to complete all the tasks that i assign myself. In these times my ol' uni lecturer Sue's advice comes to mind yet again...

"Failing to plan is planning to fail"

I guess i can say that.... AAAAHT!! this was meant to be a weekend blog damnit! NO WORK!!

Friday ended quite well for me. Lil K and Stephie wanted to hang out with stu-bob and i, but we couldnt figure out what to do with the limited financial resources we had, along with the bad weather that was all around. Usually when you have no money, the great outdoors can keep you entertained free of charge; unfortunately none of us wanted to catch cold. I had sent a txt to a motley collection of friends for any suggestions, but only one responded. Xanth the realm queen suggested that i drown them in a swimming pool. No seriously, thats what she wrote.

....yeeeeah; thanks Xanth. such a sinister girl - your lucky that your physical attractiveness overcomes your evil-ness ha ha

So with the original plan failed, Karii came to rescue me from friday night emptyness. turns out she food poisoned herself and was all alone - so hey it was a perfect time to catch up and cheer up. I arrived fully equipped with sparkling mineral water and jello cups - apparently
the safest things to eat when food poisoned without puking afterwards, and we watched a bit of TV.

It then came to my attention how Karii and her brother Jorge look like the two main characters of the tv sitcom "The New Adventures Of Old Christine" - we mused about how that may be a possible future for the two. Even more amusing, since in this episode they were talking about how Christine cant find the will-power to dump this butt ugly stalker dude, cos he's exceptionally skilled at using his mouth 'down there'. a 'Champ' if i remember the words correctly :p

it was good seeing Karii again, we always find something to talk about... shortly after the darling lil Lucci cam back from her day with the grandparents, and then Luke came back from work. I did feel odd, with Luke finding me in his bedroom with karen in the bed (ha ha dont worry, i was perched on a computer chair on the side) and its always great to see Lucci, who seems to get more and more beautiful every day. yes Karii, i read your recent blog entry - and her looks are are 50/50 combination of you and luke - which means her beauty does come from you; since Luke isnt at all that beautiful :p

I woke up in a panic on saturday, as i had some sort of allergic reaction. The dinner i had last night must of had some kind of milk product in it, cos certain parts of me went all swollen, and unfortunately no im not talking about my penis :p I managed to get the day off work, which was nice, but having a physical deformality as well kinda ruined my aquired free time.

Attended my cousin Darcy's 1st birthday instead, which was great cos i hadnt seen him for a while now, as well as his mom and dad, my grandma, and the new house they recently moved into. Its a real charming place, tucked in a busy mt roskill area - but the peaceful feeling of the place was heavily distorted by the ranting and hooting of naughty children. Geez indonesian kids are down-right rascals; i completely forgot (i was exactly the same i suppose). Many a time i felt like giving my cousin victor a boot up the ass!

Darcy though was still the handsome young man that i last saw, now walking along with a contented smile on his face. He really enjoyed his bday, and all the great (and some weird) presents that he recieved. My present wasnt there, so i must remember to bring it over soon.

I gotta say man, Uncle Chris was a real sport that day. he took all the mongrel indo kids (about 6 in total) to the cinemas to watch transformers, a movie that he really didnt like (and didnt end up watching). and dont think that looking after mongrel indo kids is easy - he even forked out a few bucks for each kid so that they could play at the arcade games. Me and Cyn came along too to help him. We managed to get through the day without the kids causing too much trouble, though Victor was being quite a rude lil punk during the movie. i wanted to lock him in a rubbish can and roll it round for a while.

I had already watched Transformers with Zobie and Stu-bob the other week, and it was okay but not as good as everyone said. It was one of those movies where you would pretend to be a director and say things in your head like "oh NO thats so wrong, thats not the way its supposed to be, you should have done it like THAT...". the graphics were awesome, but it was a movie that seriously needed a plot change, it was so wrong compared to what the actual transformers story was like (which overall would have been alot more entertaining). you know how there are some real awesome marvel comic movies (like spiderman), and then some real crap ones (like the hulk)? Well Transformers was definately the hulk material. Oh i dunno - i guess im too much of a hardcore transformers fan, a know-it-all on the topic lol.

...and to add insult to injury (for an over-obsessed transformers fanboy), my favourite character, Starscream the Decepticon, only had about one line! AND he didnt have his slick blood red paint job, didnt do his trademark evil guy laugh, and didnt try to boot megaton of his high horse and assume command! its just wrong!!

...ahem. i think i need a girlfriend lol.

AAAAANYWAY. okay, so we brought the kids back to the house afterwards, and i spent more time with family. Its great seeig them all in one place, and seeing how they have changed over time. The adults however kept pestering me about getting married to a good muslim girl, which would miraculously lead me to living a perfectly happy future. Not very likely aunties - i am not going to roll with that, as i've already decided that your choice of religion means nothing to me when it comes to my attraction to a girl. unless, possibly, if your a satanist.

actually, if i have the willpower, my next blog entry is going to be about those rants my aunties keep giving me, and 'Why Jei doesnt have a girlfriend yet", a topic that might prove interesting to the few that read this blog.

Hmm... NUP thats it for the blog entry today. A very good friday and saturday. sunday i slept all day, and made a totally awesome meal for my mom and sister. thats it - a good weekend, yay!

Goodnight everybody!

jeiganet online update...

Hmm, finally found some code to make my blog into three fixed sized columns, centered on the screen (a couple of months ago this code was really hard to find yo!) and changed the colours too just to add a little bit of spunk.

I've made the header picture, but i've been storing my blog pictures on zorpia - its free - bu one problem is that it cant store a pic with the dimensions my header pic has. Its shortened it, which will make the blo look funny. oh well it will do for now - i'll post it up shortly.

hmm... okay, the picture isnt loading?... strange...

put my shoutbo back on, and will put my friends bloglinks back on when i get back home. Ah i have such dreams for this place!

Im also thinking of picking up where i left off with my macromedia flash skills and making a few flash thingymabobs too, for a little more interaction.

I've also decided not to brag about this blog anymore to anyone, unless i really trust them. Im thinking of using this as a real journal, with real truthful thoughts. there's a bit of risk in doing stuff like that, but hey whats life without a little it of risk? there's already a few despicable and perverted beings that know of this place - but they can take their issues and stick it up their bum!

Well, back to work - i'll be here again soon!

Maybe not :p

Is this the day that i write something 'real'?
Probably not - its a Sunday and im a lazy Sunday kinda person. On days like these i get heavily distracted by the simplest of things, and tonight Miss Congeniality II is on (which i havent seen yet). its not exactly a box office smash hit but meh what can you do.

PS heh heh heh i still say 'meh', a small grunt-lingo that i stole off Shayne.

[after a growing frustration bout]...Nah screw it. Not yet. I am real sick of this dialup internet connection. I'll type this out later in notepad and post it up later.

Next vital stress reliever project due - fix my computer, and GET BROADBAND INTERNET.
Actually, i cant decide yet whether to do that or save up enough for my glasses (yes thats right, jei is returning to specs!)

See you later everybody!

Whats your pirate name?

My pirate name is:

Mad Tom Kidd

Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. Even though you're not always the traditional swaggering gallant, your steadiness and planning make you a fine, reliable pirate. Arr!

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And yes folks...

I know i've been posting a whole lot of crap; but eventually i will type something REAL. Karii and m'Leany's blogs are inspiring me again!

George Bush's First Name

Lets begin...


Okay, easy enough...


...what... your kidding me...


Un-believable...

MUA HA HA!!
...and yes your right, this is impossibly stupid - if you look closely the question has been photoshopped. But funny none the less!

Guys are all the same :p

Contributed by my sister Leni - ha ha they start younger and younger each and every day

The successful short story

Contributed by Xenetea the Realm Queen - please no more harpies!

My VisualDNA

Inspired by Shades of Grey by m'Leany Coudray - a REAL mind with something to say!

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

Speeding - whats your excuse?

Kiwi humour about the bacon boys hee hee :p

I hurt everywhere...

i feel slow
i feel ugly... no correction - i am ugly
i am sweating, and freezing at the same time
i cant see
i am alone
the naughty thoughts are the only working pain reliever
i have no money

how has it come to be that i am in such a bad state...
operator; i need an exit,,,

The random gentle love dreamer...

The Boy Next Door Random Gentle Love Dreamer (RGLDm) Kind, yearning, playful, you are The Boy Next Door. You're looking for real Love, a lot like girls do. It might not be manly, but it's sweet. We think the next three years will be very exciting and fruitful ones for you. Your spontaneous, creative side makes you a charming date, and we think you have a horny side just waiting to shine. Or glisten, rather. You enter new relationships unusually hopeful, and the first moments are especially glorious. If you've had some things not work out before, so what. Your exact opposite: The 5-Night Stand Deliberate Brutal Sex Master On paper, most girls would name the Boy Next Door as their ideal mate. In the real world, however, you're often passed over for more dangerous or masculine men. You're the typical "nice guy:" without just a touch of cockiness, you're doomed with girls. A shoulder to cry on? Okay, sure. But never a penis to hold. More than any other type, Boys Next Door evolve as they get older. As we said, many find true love, but some fail miserably in the search. These tarnished few grow up to be The Men Next Door, who are creepy as hell, offering backrubs to kids and what not. ALWAYS AVOID: The Nymph CONSIDER: The Maid of Honor, The Peach Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating. My profile name: JeiDamani