Taking it easy, and JeigaNet v5

My my i have been taking it slow...

The largest project of work i have done in recent times is this very blog: JeigaNet version 5. Finally i am away from the dull and monotonous blogger templates and have joined the ranks of the blogskins.com universe. The original blog template was created by a filipino girl (oooooooouu!! - wait a minute, i just visited her site - she's only 14; so no thankyou) named Kaila a.k.a SilentWhimpers. take a look at the original at http://www.blogskins.com/info.php?sid=43339

It is a beautiful template, and the code could be easily modified with a bit of tinkering. I know its majorly girly at the moment [DUDE THATS GIRLY!!], and also that it looks to much like (and thus reminds me of) Lian and her blog; But im currently designing a new background image that is still manga styles but a bit more 'manly':p mua ha ha i could use all the manliness i can get!

...and yeah i know Kaila said 'DO NOT ALTER MY CODE' but in my defence, i am at heart a piratical indo theif, and so from a deeply rooted sub-consious level i natually dont give a rats bottom about copyright infrigement. Its not my fault, im just genetically programmed that way - an besides, i think i made it that little bit more visually appealing, and i've still left the credit links to her site.

...but as the clock ticks by...

Yesterday i just lay on my bed and allowed my brain to slow to a halt. I skimmed magazines that i must have bought at least three years ago, and played music almost non-stop, all day. I felt really good when i spoke to Karen once again, one of the most trusted in my small circle of friends. It makes me wonder about all the other people i care about, that i've neglected to keep in contact with; such as Jin and K.

Jin will be alright, as he always is; with his 'meh' attitude to all the problems he seems to face. He'll work his way round any obstacle that gets in his way, or he'll just whack his way through them with his big black fists. As a friend though it feels as if we are at the start of two different paths, and eventually i wont be able to see him through the fog that is life. Although, that is just me being over-dramatic. He'd probaby conk me over the head, nod his head in dissapointment, give me that 'oh Jei you silly clown' look (like the one on his ID card) and do that "hmpf" thing that he does when someone is being a fool.

"A carefree life in the country"...

K is going to thailand within a matter of days, if not having gone already. as i said i havent spoken to her in a while, which i fel quite guilty about. The last kind of contact i recieved from her was an email with a picture of shrek getting a head-job... nuff sed. I might call her tonight and wish her farewell. Sometimes, although i am as close to her as i would be to Karen, she doesnt tell me some of the problems she has, unless that problem makes her feel so at un-ease that she cant contain and it blurts out. She says that sometimes she worries that i'll be dissapointed in the choices she's made, like i'll look down on her. Quite the opposite really, as in my opinion i've been the one who feels like less of a person and keeps K and her family at arms length with but shadows of the truth, rather than the big picture.

"I wish i could tell you... aww never mind"

I havent done ANYTHING in the last couple of days... i still havent planned what im going to be doing for the next 6 months - should i stay at uni or split off and try half a year of full time work? I guess the major motivational point for that decision will be my grades for the semester that just finished. I've got one - Internet and Website Development 2 - and i passed! but the other two were the harder of the three so i'll wait for those before i make a decision.

I have to go now, but before i go i just want to say this - "Leni, my beloved elder sister, i have missed you so. please may you and C-Unit visit us soon, your family wants to remember your face. Much love from lil' bro Jei"

Mace Windu; The Black Man

[Mace] - why am i the only black jedi on the jedi council? Aint nobody else in here black; and if ya'll black yo got a bone in the middle of yo 'ead...why dont ya'll throw some cotton balls around on the ground n' let me 'practice' for yo masta yoda?

[yoda] - ...what?...

[mace] - All ya'll slaaaave owners!

...

[vader] - i thought you'd be better!

[mace] - and i thought you'd be taller!

[vader] - touche!

oh no...

im in trouble... there's no way out but through.
i keep doing this to myself; i will never learn.
i dont know if i can keep this up anymore.

i keep having this dream, that i run away; run away from everything...
start anew, where no-one knows me, and i know no-one.
and learn - all by myself.

i wish i wasnt so stupid these couple of weeks.
im hurting myself way too much.
what am i going to do?

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